Memory Lane Monday!

In the last few weeks of year 11 like most people in the same year around the UK - I had a leavers book for everyone to sign (like a year book but better). I didn't fill the book so I decided I'd write a letter to myself in the future. It's been about 3/4 years since writing it and I decided I'd type it up and see what's changed since then (it's a lot). I think it's quite cringey but it's a nice thing to do because looking back at it, it helps me remember everything both before and around that time.

Dear Hayley, 

Right now you're 15, 16 soon!! It's the 2nd of june and yesterday you left school and cried for an hour literally 'probably more though'. You've just read through your leavers book and cried again. Today your listening to the radio which makes a change because you're always watching some crap on TV 'no change there then'. You go to NCS soon and your really excited because it's with your bestfriend nicole 'after a huge argument (entirely my fault) and a year of not talking we're not bestfriends anymore but we're still friends. NCS was extremely good though'. Well you did it, you survived secondary school, one thats filled with idiots and bullies.. obviously ignorance is bliss 'told you it was cringy'. 

When you're older you want: 

♥An old pink mini 'Changed to a new mint green soft top mini'

♥two children, a girl called Liberty-Skye and a boy called Niall 'Still true - I wonder where I got the boys name from'  

♥a job in the police force 'cause you're offit'. 'Now I just want a job in admin'

Right now, your hair is ginger, you've been:

♥Brown

♥Browny-red

♥red

♥purple

♥Black 'I can now add blonde to that'

and you've dip dyed it twice three times now! You're really scared for college and your probably reading this thinking 'wtf.. it was a doddle!' 'not quite hayley, not quite' I don't doubt it was but you're pooing yourself for it now anyway! Last night was good at the leavers campout, it was hilarious Jane* shouting at everyone for being half seshes and then she went at like 10. You, col, liam, char and jamie stayed til midnight cause you's are offit. Ash and Neil* stayed all night bless them. The fire was nice too, you don't like Neil because he called you fat.. your not arsed anymore but you still don't like him. Oh god, the leavers assembly was cute as, there were a tonne of old photos that you didn't even remember being taken. The photo of Mr Miller made you and Holl cry the most cause it was just him. Shocking that he still isn't back isn't it, well he might be when your reading this. 'Sadly Mr miller isnt back and will not be back ever - he was sacked and more and more teachers have left' All I know is the best teacher you've ever had, all his little stories and everything!

Everyones written in here about your happiness and your always doing your best to smile when youd rather not . You'd be weird without your smile by the sounds of it! OMG your braces, I assume you'll have them off by now? Are they nice, are you looking after your teeth properly now? You can't wait to see! 'they are off but not in the conventional way (I took them off myself because im terrified of the orthadontist)'

You can be such a freak, do you know that? If you read some of the messages in here like the people you're close to, their hilarious! You were a stalker, an alcho, a fattie and a genuine weirdo! I hope you havent changed, here's all your favourite things: 

Colours - 

♥Reddy-Pink

♥Purple

♥Bluey Green 'All still true'

Films -

♥Starstruck

♥Diary of a Wimpy Kid

♥any Harry Potter

♥Cat in the Hat

♥John Tucker Must Die

♥4321

♥Mean Girls

♥Step Brothers

♥Catch me if you can 'I haven't watched half of these in ages, starstruck is still my fave though'

food - 

♥Ready Salted Crisps

♥McDonalds

♥tomatoes

♥Spag Bol

♥Pizza

♥Freddos

♥Poptarts 'All still true'

books - 

♥Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging 1-7

♥ All Harry Potters

♥True Story books

♥the twilight saga 'I now love tfios and if I stay too and tonnes more but im not sure'

Aw Hayley, I hope you've done well in school/college and go far 'I'd say I did well, I passed everything and got into uni.. I just didn't go'! In case you forget how offit you were, here is a picture to show you! At Teeside Uni, people were asked to do an experiment so you (thinking others from your school would) shot your hand up, turns out it was just you and creeps from teeside high, well done midge! Good luck and stay offit!

The photo mentioned

Wow what a long bloody letter that was! in case you're wondering, the names jane and neil are names that have been changed because I don't think I should keep their real names in but every one elses are real! also if you cant tell, the bits in the letter that arent in italics are me now so I've annotated it sort of. Like I said, its a really nice thing to do if like me you really like to hold onto memories, if your in your last year of school I definitely suggest you write a little letter to yourself for a few years time it's like a non-buried time capsule.   

Im thinking of doing more 'memory lane monday' posts so if you have any ideas they would be more than welcome. I hope you enjoy my posts as much as I enjoy writing them, I mean I don't mind if you don't, I'm mainly writing them for me anyway but, it'd be v nice if more than just myself enjoyed reading them. 

Hayl xo 

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Things life has taught me!

At the grand old age of 18 and a quarter I feel I have definitely learnt a lot about life so guess what here I am telling you all just what I have learnt, because that's what I do now, I tell strangers that I don't know a thing about.. massive details about my life!

1. If you want something enough you can have it but not without working for it!
2. Underage drinking is both good and bad.. as I've said before, I've drank alcohol since I was like 15 and it was good because I have now developed an understanding/better tolerance to the alcohol, like on my first night out I was able to drink a lot and still not be extremely drunk! The bad thing is that now after about 3 years, drinking is a bit boring, I think cause now I can legally drink and before I couldn't and there was more excitement but yeah, it does wear old!
3. when you fall out with friends, it's not always the end of the world, if you're in the wrong you should still do everything you can to fix it and apologise and whatnot but if your not in the wrong or if after you try everything they still don't want to know you or make up you should just let it go and leave them to it because 9/10 if you truly tried everything you could, they'll come back and if not its cool!
4. Crushes never last, they come quick and often but they end as quick as they came, it might not feel like it but they do, this is a fact proven by many!
5. among the problems a young person can come across, there's always someone worse, so you should be grateful unless you are the someone that has it worse then we all feel for you!
6. problems aren't problems for long they manage to be fixed after a while
7. When you do something it has to be for you - you can't do something because your friends are or you're parents want you to, if you do or don't want to do something it's your choice no one else's!
8. Not too long ago I learnt how important it is to own up to things straight away and people might think ah well that's something you should do anyway, in certain situations it isn't always that easy but I've realised that even in a hard situation where you might not feel like you can own up trust me if you don't it's 100% worse than what it could've been!
9. At some point its best to let things go.. maybe not straight after because the person its being let go on may think what they did was acceptable and they are free to do it again but obviously their not.. I just mean don't hold on to it too long because then its only you getting hurt!
10. Rome was definitely not built in a day.. if you really want something (just like in lesson 1) you will not get it without work and sometimes that might only take a day but not all the time, it will sometime take weeks.. just let life take it's course and it shall happen!
11. Don't do things half arsed.. if you only put half of your effort into it it's probably going to be poo and you might have to do it all over again so why not do it right the first time?
12. Don't throw ice over club balconies
13. don't wear play suits to town
14. don't drink too much before a night out because you'll end up ruining your best friends night by being sick and having to go home!

I can't think of any more so I'm going to leave it there but if I think of any more I shall make a part 2 because I am always learning lessons as I make many a mistake! I shall see you all next week with another post if you have something you want to see from me like advice on a certain topic or a q&a or just anything at all just leave it in the comments because I'm always looking for suggestions :) and I will see you next week!

Hayl xo

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The Liebster Award

Two posts in one week? What is this madness? Well as you can tell from the title it is the Liebster Award and I have been nominated for one by the lovely Danielle O'Rourke from the blog http://heartofdan.blogspot.co.uk/. Thank you so much .. I didn't even think people persistently read my blog (other than my friends, who I make do so!)  

Im going to start by telling you 11 facts about myself that you dont already know:

1. I attempted a monthly favourites post last month and decided that I couldn't choose what my favourite things were and then didn't end up finishing the post
2. I am extremely indecisive, I can go to the shop for some crisps and not return for about half an hour, because I can't ever make up my mind!
3. I try to leave my hair as long as possible (unless im doing something) before washing it so my hair stays healthy.. I only leave it 4 days at the limit though!
4. I get really excited when post comes for me, even if its just a catalog
5. My favourite film is harry potter (all of them, I could never choose just one) and not only do I want the deathly hallows symbol as a tattoo, I have a quote from the philosophers stone on my bedroom wall!
6. I won an award for the most likely to become famous at my leavers prom
7. I went to a religious half term club called fizz bang when I was little and we were in the northern echo - can't remember why though:')
8. My favourite colours are lilac, the colour of blueberry barry m nail varnish and a reddy-pink colour
9. I like everything to have a place, I have the normal things like a tv stand, a dresser, a wardrobe ect. but I also have things like boxes for earrings, boxes for bobbles and grips and a birthday bag where I keep my alcohol..
10. My favourite perfume is the one direction - our moment one, its the nicest smell ever
11. I am quarter italian on my biological dads side!

Next up is the 11 questions set by the nominator - 

 1. If you could change one moment in time what would it be? You know what I'm a huge believer in things happen for a reason so I probably wouldn't change any moments as corny as it sounds, Im happy where I am in life and if I changed something, who knows what life would be like.. that said if I could change something I did I would revise more for exams so I could've got better grades

  2. Who is you're number one hero in life? My nannie (Gran) , she's always been the best role model ever, she's in like her 80's (im not specifically sure on her age) and she still gets up at 6:30 every morning and goes to work in her shop that she runs and on her only day off she goes to boot sales to get more stock (its a vintage shop) and if she can do that at her age and with her severity of arthritis, I know I can do anything

  3. If you could change one thing about the world then what would it be? (i.e. no war) I would change prejudice, it causes so much hate to so many different types and groups of people not just that but it's caused wars and so many petty arguments and if there were no prejudice, the only problems there would be is general wrong doings, so yeah! 

  4. What is your favourite season? My favourite season has to be Autumn.. I love the brown leaves falling from the trees and the fact that there can still be warm days but there can be cold days too (every season in the UK) I also like Halloween and bonfire night, a lot!

  5. What is your least favourite type of weather? It's a toss up between snow and rain, I love both when im in the house and looking out of the window but if im out in either for too long I will not be happy at all!

  6. If you could choose one thing to be extremely good at what would it be? (i.e. singing) Cheering people up, even though my bestfriend tells me I can always cheer people up, I can't do it as quick as she can me, I usually do something like put a film on or say something awks that will make her laugh and then she'll be okay but I never know the right things to say so yeah, I wish I was a better cheerer upper

  7. What type of blog is your favourite to read? (i.e. photography, fashion etc.) I love beauty and lifestyle blogs. I like seeing 'favourites' blogs and anything about beauty and loooove reading posts like my own that are similar :)

  8. If you could choose to be any celebrity for a day who would you choose and why? I would be Selena Gomez, not only does she have great friends but her love life is cray and she knows/dated Niall Horan!

  9. What is the one dream in life that you want to come true? Marrying Niall Horan (Straight to the point!) I don't even care that I'm 18.. I am in love with Niall and I just think he's the cutest person ever and he seems v funny! (he's also beautiful)

  10. If you were a fruit what fruit would you be? I dont know what fruit I am so I'll do a quiz and let you know! Apparently I'm a banana because Im funny and never let anything get in the way of a joke, I make my friends laugh and my natural enemy is a Lemon.. that's good to know

  11. What is you're favourite song at the moment? There are 3 that I'll click on first in my playlist 'All about it - hoodie allen ft ed sheeran', 'As long as I got you - Lily Allen' and 'Mrs all american - 5 seconds of summer'

So now it's time to give my nominations.. These are people (with under 200 followers) whos blogs I love to read and don't miss a post!

• Nicole - http://evolutionofglam.blogspot.co.uk/
• mzmatch - http://mzmatch.blogspot.co.uk/
• Carol - http://intrice.blogspot.co.uk/
• Amy - http://aimsui.blogspot.co.uk
• Megan - http://littlemeeke.blogspot.co.uk
• http://beautyreviewsnl.wordpress.com
• Samantha - http://todowhatwelove.com
• Helen - http://littlebitsofpixiedust.blogspot.co.uk
• Heather - http://www.alittlecasual.com

Now my last person is a youtuber and has a fairly big youtube following but he is as new to blogging as I am and I love his blog as much as his channel so yeah :D

• Sam - http://www.samkingftw.co.uk

1. Now with this 'award' there are some rules which are as follows..
2. Thank the blog that nominated you and link them.
3. Post eleven facts about yourself.
4. Answer the eleven questions provided by the person who nominated you and then create an eleven question set for the next group of nominees.
5. Choose eleven people to nominate and link them on the post. 
6. Let your nominees know they've been tagged - and no tag backs!
7. Nominate blogs with under 200 followers. 

My 11 questions for you are..

1. What do you do that others find strange?
2. What is your proudest moment?
3. Why did you start blogging 
4. Do you have a favourite accent if so which one?
5. What's your favourite genre of film?
6. If you could be anywhere in the world where would you be?
7. If you could meet any celebrity (dead or alive) who would it be?
8. What is your favourite song and artist? (They can be different)
9. do you collect anything?
10. Are you funny? What's your best joke?
11. What is the opposite of your biggest fear?

Thanks again for the nomination danielle and thanks to everyone else for reading this, please take the time to check out my nominations and I hope you enjoy them as much as I do 

Hayl xo

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19 before 19 - A Years Bucket List

So Since I've not been 18 for too long I thought there is still a fair bit of time to do things before I turn 19 so here is a list of 19 things I will attempt to have done by august the 7th next year!

In no particular order here we go -

1. Start Driving Lessons - I have been able to start my lessons for a long time but I haven't had the motivation/desire to start them and Im getting to a point where I do want to drive but I just haven't fancied it enough so yeah
2. Go somewhere new - This is quite vague but I just mean visit somewhere new and interesting and fun that I've never been before
3. Attend a Quiz night - The local pub hosts many a quiz night (or so I think) but I just haven't been to one just yet and I really want to cause I do love a good quiz
4. Reach my goal body shape - I really want to like tone up and be in shape so I just want to be able to be confident in things like cropped tops and if ever I was to go swimming I don't want to constantly be in like control swim suits etc  
5. get a job - I mean this needs no explanation and I certainly hope to have a job before I turn 19 because I just need a job!!
6. find a good concealer - This is so random to want to do before im 19 but I just want to find a concealer that works and is really good so if you know of one, help a girl out here!
7. learn to speak a new language - I already know a little french because I did it in school but I want to be able to like string sentences together and have like a full on conversation!
8. finish watching the us office - I became obsessed with the office and got to the 4th or 5th series but I haven't got round to finishing it but I want to because its wonderful and I always see gifs and Im like aaah spoilers:(
9. try a starbucks - #uncommonwhitegirl... I just haven't tried starbucks yet but I want to see what the fuss is over
10. Go to a new theme park - I'm not exactly the biggest of thrill seekers and I've been to like 3 theme parks but I want to go to a new one haha
11. go to nandos - same with starbucks, I just want to see the hype
12. meet my biological dad - I could write a lot about this but I wont, basically its not because I need a dad (I have my wonderful stepdad who brought me up) I just want to know about him like where he was in his life when I was born and why he hasn't kept in touch, this is already deeper than necessary so yeah...
13. become more confident - I have confidence but there are certain areas in life that I can't be confident like meeting new people (particularly the opposite gender) like I'll stop myself talking to people because I worry what people think about me and whether I can be what people want or expect or even imagine that I am, ugh c'est tres merde 
14. get my nose pierced - I really want my nose pierced and I don't even know why, if I get a job I probably wont be allowed it in but I just want it done
15. get a tattoo - I want the deathly hallows sign somewhere on my body and I don't know where yet but I want it alot!
16. Go for a picnic somewhere - I haven't actually been for a picnic in a long time and whether it's just with my friends or whatever, I just really want to go on one because it'll be fun and I like food (may need to remind myself of number 4 though)
17. Buy a plant that can live in my room - just something little like a bonsai tree or a mimosa pudica, they just seem so cool!
18. Grow sea monkeys and keep them alive for longer - My friend got me some sea monkeys for my 16th birthday and everything was going wonderful but I over fed them and they ended up all dying which was v sad:(
19. cook a meal from scratch - like fully from scratch not even sauce jars or packets, nothing!

So this has been my 19 before 19 I hope you've enjoyed it and I hope that by reading this you've gained something, not sure what anyone could possibly gain but hey ho, have a nice week and I shall see you all again next monday!

Hayl xo

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A - Z of me - 26 questions about me

Oh hey there.. is it that time of the week again? Well you'd best grab a drink and maybe a snack because this is the A - Z of me and we could be here a while! 

A: If you were an ANIMAL, what would you be?

I would probably be a parrot (in the wild) because they can talk, maybe not wild ones though cause they wont encounter enough humans to learn words BUT they can fly around all the time and see beautiful sights and they apparently have the longest lifespan

B: BOOKS: What’s on your reading list?

at the moment I'm reading need by carrie jones which is to get me into the Halloween spirit because it's quite supernatural and is fitting to the time of year, I'm also in the process of reading mokee joe by peter j murray which again has a spooky theme to it but it's not that bad cause it's made for a young audience I've actually had it since I was about 7 or 8, I'll add the book cover and let you decide for yourself but I would be terrified if the monster from it came near me!

C: COMPULSIVE about anything?

A few things actually, I keep my highlighters in 'rainbow' order, my books are in genre order, my dvds are in genre and company order for example if there are two chick flicks made by universal - they will be together, also I can't stop clicking/cracking my knuckles

D: DREAMS – Do you…dream in colour? Remember your dreams? Keep a dream journal?

I do tend to dream in colour, well the ones I remember are in colour, I actually have quite realistic dreams, like I'll have dreams including people I know and they'll say things the person would say so some are actually quite memorable but I can never remember enough to write a dream journal, I wish I could though!

E: EATING – what’s your usual snack?

So I really don't eat very healthily, I wish I could but I just cant bring myself to so I mainly reach for a packet of crisps but I don't snack a lot through the day, I'll have a packet of crisps and maybe a chocolate bar at the most.

F: A few of your FAVOURITE Things

Nutty chocolate, tomato soup, my dog, tv, books, my family, my amazing friends, clicking my knuckles, rugby players of the welsh kind, copious amounts of alcohol 

G: GIGGLES! What (or who) makes you laugh? Do you have a good sense of humor?

Puns make me laugh a lot, most comedy shows, most comedy films, myself, my best friend, lee evans(comedian), nick grimshaw(radio personality), russell howard(comedian) I mean, theres a lot more.. Im a cheap laugh, I find a lot of things funny

H: Major HOT Button:

Ignorance, people that don't accept change when it's clearly for the better, dying on flappy bird (yes I still play it), when people are only open to one way of thinking like they have one opinion and anything else that doesn't go with that opinion is wrong, when people want help and when you try to help they complain that everything your doing to help is wrong

I: I am…

Short. Funny(well I think so). friendly. forgiving. uninteresting. out of things I am

K: Also KNOWN As… Aliases? Screen names? A non de plume perhaps?

I wouldn't say I was known as anything, I use my own name for screen names, I don't have a pseudonym or anything like that.. Just Hayley, or hayl

L: I LOVE…

My Family and friends, good food, alcohol, reading, made in chelsea, my dog, 

M: How do you feel about MEETING people? Do it all the time? Rarely? Parties or 1-on-1?

Im shy sometimes but I do love meeting new people, I like learning about people and stuff like that.

N: What’s the story of your NAME? Were you named after anyone? Do you go by a nickname? Any aliases?

My mum didn't know what she wanted to call me at all and then it came to me being born and she still didn't know so my brother decided I should be named after his friend who was obviously called Hayley, so yeah.. my middle name Louisa is from my grandma frances who died before I was born so I never got to meet her but I've heard great things

O: OBSERVANT – What’s around you right now? What do you see?

My laptop is right in front of me, my dog is laid on the floor next to my door, the tv is on and glue is about to start, I can see 3 bottles of water on my dressing table.. there are a lot of things in my room tbh

P: Who are the special PEOPLE in your life?

Well my parents I guess are the most important, my nannie is really important too I love her to pieces even if I haven't seen her in a while, I also love my brother cause he's great, obviously my friends are really important to me too because idk, when aren't friends important?

Q: Any little QUIRKS about yourself?

I am a compulsive knuckle clicker, I call 'coke' cola, I try on outfits and makeup constantly when I'm planning to go out or for a party, I talk too much and Im also a huge panicker like I unnecessarily worry if someone doesn't reply to a message on facebook or anything else, I have a specific way of eating and I don't know if its just me (let me know if you do the same) but when I'm eating a meal lets say a sunday dinner, I would eat the veg then the mash, then the chicken - like I do that with any meal!

R: What do you like to do for RECREATION?

I read, spend time with my friends, watch films, binge watch tv shows, blog, go to the gym

S: Do You SING in the Shower? In the car? For your friends?

I sing all the time, whether I'm any good is debatable but I definitely sing a lot, I aaaalways sing in the shower and bath because I don't like the silence. 

T: What’s at the top of your TO DO list?

I'm not quite sure, I have no massive aspirations at the moment - I guess the usual things like travelling - do well idk

U: Any UNUSUAL experiences?

The only few that come to mind are from nights out in the town - the first one was when me and my friend jasmine were in a club just dancing and having a good time and there were two boys, not remotely attractive (not that I cared I was just uninterested in them) and they were dancing near us and they kept looking at us so I smiled just being nice and polite as you do and the tallest boy says "you's can give us the V whenever you's want" middlesborough town really is wonderful. The second one was on another night out we were in the second bar we usually go to on a night and we were quite drunk and I was dancing stood at my chair and I knocked my full jug of cocktail over and soaked myself, I went to the toilet to dry off and when I got back there was ice everywhere so I threw it at one friend who threw it back so I then threw it at another and carried on and when there was no where else to throw it I threw it off the balcony, just to see if it would hit anyone, me and hollie (you know who she is) carried on throwing ice and then hollie threw a ring and I don't know why, two minutes later, a bouncer was stood next to me telling me he saw what I was doing and I should stop because it was dangerous and I'll have to leave if I do it again. 

V: VEGAS, Vienna, Venice, Vladivostok… How far have you travelled? What’s your favourite city?

I haven't travelled that much to be honest I've only stayed in the UK, I think the furthest I've been is Stone which is 169 miles away from where I live. My favourite place to go is probably Scarborough where I was born, it's just full of history, for the country and myself. 

W: WINTER, Spring, Summer, Fall… What’s your favourite season? What makes it special?

Erm, I like summer the most because it's brighter and everyone's happier and people have bbq's and parties and its my birthday in the summer and its just great. I like winter too though because I like christmas and watching christmas films and snow and seeing people in the festive spirit

X: EXes…

I don't have many but they've never really bothered me, I'm still 'friends' with one 

Y: Any secret/deep YEARNINGS?

I would really like to get a job that pays well and I can be comfortable best thing would be to be able to work from home, I don't know what doing though - not a secret though. There are some secret ones but I mean, they're a secret for a reason..

Z: ZERO to ZENITH – Where are you in your life? Still growing? On an upward (or downward) curve? Just skating along?

I mean, I guess I'm growing still, because im only young but I would also like to think im on an upward curve cause Im pretty happy with how my life is and how everything is going.

So this has been the A-Z of me, if your getting to this point in the post and you have an opinion on what I said or what I should write about or even just to say hi or to let me know you're a recurring reader, please comment on the post, just to show people are taking in what I say and are enjoying my posts - I dont even care if you don't like them, tell me that IT ALL HELPS! As always thanks for reading my posts and giving me silent motivation to carry on because if it wasn't for you having a gander, I wouldn't be writing these posts!

Hayl xo 

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