Blogging break / broken laptop

Okay so my laptop is broken (I'm doing this on my phone) so I won't be able to upload any posts until it's fixed which I don't know when that will be, the laptop is at my dads house right now and as soon and I dont know of a sustainable way (not on my phone - basically) to make 'okay' posts. I have lots of post planned for this month and I'm sad I can't do them but they will all be up when they can be!

I'm really sorry if this is disappointing news but it's not for forever so yeah, Ill see you when I can!

Hayl xo

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Memory Lane Monday!

In the last few weeks of year 11 like most people in the same year around the UK - I had a leavers book for everyone to sign (like a year book but better). I didn't fill the book so I decided I'd write a letter to myself in the future. It's been about 3/4 years since writing it and I decided I'd type it up and see what's changed since then (it's a lot). I think it's quite cringey but it's a nice thing to do because looking back at it, it helps me remember everything both before and around that time.

Dear Hayley, 

Right now you're 15, 16 soon!! It's the 2nd of june and yesterday you left school and cried for an hour literally 'probably more though'. You've just read through your leavers book and cried again. Today your listening to the radio which makes a change because you're always watching some crap on TV 'no change there then'. You go to NCS soon and your really excited because it's with your bestfriend nicole 'after a huge argument (entirely my fault) and a year of not talking we're not bestfriends anymore but we're still friends. NCS was extremely good though'. Well you did it, you survived secondary school, one thats filled with idiots and bullies.. obviously ignorance is bliss 'told you it was cringy'. 

When you're older you want: 

♥An old pink mini 'Changed to a new mint green soft top mini'

♥two children, a girl called Liberty-Skye and a boy called Niall 'Still true - I wonder where I got the boys name from'  

♥a job in the police force 'cause you're offit'. 'Now I just want a job in admin'

Right now, your hair is ginger, you've been:

♥Brown

♥Browny-red

♥red

♥purple

♥Black 'I can now add blonde to that'

and you've dip dyed it twice three times now! You're really scared for college and your probably reading this thinking 'wtf.. it was a doddle!' 'not quite hayley, not quite' I don't doubt it was but you're pooing yourself for it now anyway! Last night was good at the leavers campout, it was hilarious Jane* shouting at everyone for being half seshes and then she went at like 10. You, col, liam, char and jamie stayed til midnight cause you's are offit. Ash and Neil* stayed all night bless them. The fire was nice too, you don't like Neil because he called you fat.. your not arsed anymore but you still don't like him. Oh god, the leavers assembly was cute as, there were a tonne of old photos that you didn't even remember being taken. The photo of Mr Miller made you and Holl cry the most cause it was just him. Shocking that he still isn't back isn't it, well he might be when your reading this. 'Sadly Mr miller isnt back and will not be back ever - he was sacked and more and more teachers have left' All I know is the best teacher you've ever had, all his little stories and everything!

Everyones written in here about your happiness and your always doing your best to smile when youd rather not . You'd be weird without your smile by the sounds of it! OMG your braces, I assume you'll have them off by now? Are they nice, are you looking after your teeth properly now? You can't wait to see! 'they are off but not in the conventional way (I took them off myself because im terrified of the orthadontist)'

You can be such a freak, do you know that? If you read some of the messages in here like the people you're close to, their hilarious! You were a stalker, an alcho, a fattie and a genuine weirdo! I hope you havent changed, here's all your favourite things: 

Colours - 

♥Reddy-Pink

♥Purple

♥Bluey Green 'All still true'

Films -

♥Starstruck

♥Diary of a Wimpy Kid

♥any Harry Potter

♥Cat in the Hat

♥John Tucker Must Die

♥4321

♥Mean Girls

♥Step Brothers

♥Catch me if you can 'I haven't watched half of these in ages, starstruck is still my fave though'

food - 

♥Ready Salted Crisps

♥McDonalds

♥tomatoes

♥Spag Bol

♥Pizza

♥Freddos

♥Poptarts 'All still true'

books - 

♥Angus Thongs and Perfect Snogging 1-7

♥ All Harry Potters

♥True Story books

♥the twilight saga 'I now love tfios and if I stay too and tonnes more but im not sure'

Aw Hayley, I hope you've done well in school/college and go far 'I'd say I did well, I passed everything and got into uni.. I just didn't go'! In case you forget how offit you were, here is a picture to show you! At Teeside Uni, people were asked to do an experiment so you (thinking others from your school would) shot your hand up, turns out it was just you and creeps from teeside high, well done midge! Good luck and stay offit!

The photo mentioned

Wow what a long bloody letter that was! in case you're wondering, the names jane and neil are names that have been changed because I don't think I should keep their real names in but every one elses are real! also if you cant tell, the bits in the letter that arent in italics are me now so I've annotated it sort of. Like I said, its a really nice thing to do if like me you really like to hold onto memories, if your in your last year of school I definitely suggest you write a little letter to yourself for a few years time it's like a non-buried time capsule.   

Im thinking of doing more 'memory lane monday' posts so if you have any ideas they would be more than welcome. I hope you enjoy my posts as much as I enjoy writing them, I mean I don't mind if you don't, I'm mainly writing them for me anyway but, it'd be v nice if more than just myself enjoyed reading them. 

Hayl xo 

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My ideal (Unrealistic fantasy) valentines day!

As you may know valentines day is right around the corner and because I'm single I wont be doing anything for it (completely not bothered though..). Just because I'm not doing anything, it doesn't stop me having ideas for what I'd like to do on valentines day and oh boy do I have a big imagination. 

Okay so first off I'd like to wake up to breakfast in bed inc. eggs, bacon, pancakes.. the works! You might be thinking what's so unrealistic about that.. well I should add I'd like this to be in Paris (or Venice.. I'm not fussy) with an amazing view from my window.  After we've ate we'll go for a walk along a river and have a picnic and it will be lovely. We'll go to dinner in a nice restaurant where I'll be told that the next day we'll be going to disney land paris or for a gondola ride (is ride the right word). I can't think of anything else that is both unrealistic and that I would want but yeah there you go. 

Now jokes aside I would literally be happy with a nice day at home.. I'd still want breakfast in bed but we'd both make it and then jump back into bed and eat it watching something on tv. Other than that there's nothing I wouldn't be happy with on valentines day (other than being left on my own or being actually left). We could do some baking together or go to the cinemas. Without sounding like 'that girl' who pretends downplay everything by saying they'd be happier with like a McDonald's or whatever.. I would genuinely love to go to a cafe  like a 'greasy spoon' (not as disgusting as it sounds) their my favourite type of cafe and type of place to eat. 

So yeah, that is both my unrealistic and realistic valentines day. Just to reiterate the first one is entirely unrealistic, I wouldn't expect any of that on valentines day. On previous valentines, I've gone for a meal with friends or spent the night watching films again with friends. You don't have to have a boyfriend on valentines day you can share the love with anyone!

Hayl xo

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